Go away,

The one thing I hate the most about rain is being so freaking depressed and I think so much when it's raining. Something always happens when it rains too, seriously. I always have bad luck when it rains. "Rain, rain, go away, please come back another day." There's things I hate about life, and things I love about life.. Currently, I've been confused about so many things, I don't know what to do..or think about anything. I really want things to work out great for me, but I guess I have to let everything "fall into place", before I can be happy.. It's like a bad dream, happening over and over and over again.. I try to not dream of this kinda dream often, but it just happens, and I can't controll it.. I hate the fact that my parents have to be so strict with things. I just want to do ONE thing, and they have to say "NO". It's really getting to the point, where I get pissed off easily.. Like for example, I'm going to be going to San Jose, and my mother wants me to "set higher" when i'm setting 1's&4's. (middles&outsides), when apparently, I'M TRYING MY BEST ALREADY. I have to remember to do ALL these different things, remember where I am in rotations, it gets really confusing, i can't take it all at once. I have my mother, coach, and grandmother screaming at me all at once.. It's too much to handle. I'm really, seriously to the point, of STRESSED out. &to be honest, I don't know what to do with the situation i'm trying to deal with.. I love you, I don't want to hurt you.