Life.

I don't even know where to start with this, let's just think it through. I mean, issn't this is what blogspot is for, helping me think things through? This may be my first post on Blogspot, but I want to make it strong, and worth the read. I want this blog to touch people's hearts and say that I'm an insporation, or just a big help to some. I guess that's a dream that will probably never come true, hey but who knows, right? Okay, I kinda figured out where to start with this whole thing, It's called a little thing called love. It can be a bitch to you, but it all goes on. Recently, I mett this really nice attractive looking guy, his name is Josh. He lives in Sherman Oaks, I mett him through a good friend, Grachelle. We started talking a month ago, somewhat around there, if I am correct. We talked like, every single day.. I'm not even kidding. Then, one day.. BOOOM, it's kapoop, it's all gone. I asked Grachelle to talk to him, see if he's "still in the game". He told her all these awful things about what he felt and stuff, that made me feel even worse, and made me feel like, if it was all my fault for all the problems/things he was thinking about, and talking to Grachelle about. It's not my style to just walk away from commitment, if you have a problem then say it to me. I don't want any hidden feelings, you should have told me from the start, if I recall he was the one who said "I'll never hurt you". Oh, what Bullcrap you pulled on me, haha. Well, what can we say, "the grass is greener on the otherside"? We can't always say that. I just felt this really certain way with Josh, like seriously.. I've never felt like this for another guy before.. NO FUCKING JOKEE! ): it just hurts me that I have to live like this, my feelings for hard for him... let's just say that, there's no better way of putting it, especially if he's not even going to give a fucking crap about it anyways.