Love, it's very Confusing.

I don't really know what to call love anymore, it's so confusing. I just want one good, striaght answer about love. But, in the reality, It doesnt seem right to let go of something you've had for so long. but it doesnt seem right, either, to hold onto something that's just not there anymore.. =/ It really sucks, knowing that you had something in the palm of your hands, and then one day it's just gone. When he told me we were better off as friends, I couldn't believe it. I was so hurt, I cried for hours, listened to r&b music. it's just time, that i've said my last goodbye. all i could think about was that time we stayed up all night talking. he didn't say that i was wrong or stupid. he didn't laugh at me when i confessed my wildest dreams. he just listened, and it was then that i knew, i wanted to be with him. I remember everything he told me )= I miss him alot, I wish he knew. I feel so weird now, not talking to him alot anymore. I wish he knew everything, everything i do just to tell him things, that i feel =/ Its kinda, impossible now since he doesnt talk to me... )= i think i did a wrong thing, when i expressed how I felt when he skated. /= BLAH. I want to give up, but I know if I do, then It would only want me to try harder.. And still fight for whats right, and I know, I know someday, somehow.. It's going to work. If I just believe )=