personal.

i want to stop giving. all i ever do is give give give give give give give.. and give. no, i'm not suppsoed to expect anything back; no gratitude or anything, but how is it supposed to feel when i put so much in? not positive, for one. it's hard to lay back, it's hard when it's not something i'd normally do, or have ever wanted to do. but now i want it and i can't do it. every time i tell myself to stop, it just doesn't work. i want need to stop giving...and to stop settling for less than i deserive.