personal.

i want to stop giving. all i ever do is give give give give give give give.. and give. no, i'm not suppsoed to expect anything back; no gratitude or anything, but how is it supposed to feel when i put so much in? not positive, for one. it's hard to lay back, it's hard when it's not something i'd normally do, or have ever wanted to do. but now i want it and i can't do it. every time i tell myself to stop, it just doesn't work. i want need to stop giving...and to stop settling for less than i deserive.

meant to be with you, and ONLY you.

I strongly believe that two people are
connected at heart. And it doesn't
matter what you do, or who you are,
or where you live. There are no
boundaries or barriers if two people
are destined to be together.

Because,

Because sometimes there is no easy way out. You just have to grin and bear it. Sometimes the only escape route is to go straight through the flames, just brace yourself and bite your lip. Sometimes you have to sever the ties clean off. Because in every relationship, there comes a point when the damage is too much & no matter how good it once was, the memories can't sustain you. You have to save yourself knowing all the while it will hurt like hell. Because you can't keep giving someone everything if you get nothing in return. You're so afraid to continue what we have, you know something's there. You feel it just as much as I do when you touch me, you like it just as much as I do when you kiss me. It's just, you're pulling away now 'cause you know that if you don't pull away soon, you might find yourself falling in love. And I don't think you're prepared for that.

Then darkness comes,

when life comes rushing at you out of the darkness who will you choose to face it with? will it be someone you trust? will they be wise? and will their love for you help them guide you to the light, or will they lose their way in the darkness? will they make noble choices? or will that person be untested, someone new? life comes rushing at you from out of the darkness. when it does, is there someone in your life you can count on - someone who will watch over you when you stumble and fall and in that moment, give you the strength to face your fears alone?

half

I just wanted to tell people I'm still alive and doing well.





<3."Half way around the world, and I still make her smile. :-)"

TEXTING!!

At this point in time, I really know very few people who don't admit to sending at least a text message or two everyday, & even my own mother knows how to send one, though she thinks the idea is quite over-rated.
Personally, I think the acting of "texting" comes most into play when one is involved in a relationship. Most of us have heard of the joking phrase "textually active," but this statement probably rings true more than we give it credit for. Sure, there are those couples who can expect as little as a "have a good day!" text & be perfectly fine, but then there are those (and probably the majority) couples who expect to talk via text messaging for literally the entire day...when does this become too much?
My mom has always said "you kids are too in touch. Back in my day we didnt talk to each other for days!" What she's trying to say here is that "back in her day" relationships were based upon trust. These days, if we aren't talking to our S.O. we're wondering what they're hiding...in a sense, texting is making us come across as exactly how we DONT want to come across - ding! ding! - CLINGY. You guessed it.
So here's my question for you - do you think your texting with your S.O strengthens your relationship with them or actually hurts it? &, in your experience, have you ever had a relationship helped by texting...or, you know, hurt?